Absent

I feel like I've been absent in my life lately.  I've been doing alright, just not engaged like I would normally be.  Even for the summer, I feel like I'm just floating through, not overachieving, but not underachieving either.  I'm not being noticed either way.

I want to be noticed.

I haven't done anything spectacular and don't see anything coming my way soon.  Lately, I've found myself asking the question, "What am I going to do to make my mark?"  Sure I've been involved in Teenpower for a while and I've got a decent track record in school.  My running isn't extraordinary (and my training this summer's showed that too) and I'm not really a good enough swimmer or biker to be great at triathlons.  I could be average at everything I do; that's not interesting.  I want to stand out, to show the world that I am a person of excellence.  I just don't know how to do it.

I feel like I've spread myself too thin through my life up to this point.  I haven't been able to settle into an activity because I've been constantly moving from one thing to another in hopes of finding my niche.  I still haven't found it but hopefully it comes to me soon.

Till next time, get lots of rest and drink plenty of fluids.