Seller's Remorse

In case you didn't know, buyer's remorse is when you buy something and instantly feel like you really shouldn't have made that purchase.  It's something I feel all the time because I'm stingy to say the least and don't feel the need to have a whole slew of possessions.  Call it a gift or a curse, but I lean more toward the curse stance.  I'm never comfortable with my purchases until later when I've settled into them a little bit.  Alright on to the real reason for this post, other than it's a new month and I want to get a post in before I run out of June, more on that later.

Seller's Remorse

Sure it's not as commonly known as Buyer's Remorse, but it's there.  And it's been hitting me hard lately.  I feel like, unlike buyer's remorse, Seller's Remorse get's worse as time progresses and the realization... What am I saying?  Let me explain in case you haven't followed

Seller's remorse is when you sell something or give something up that you think you shouldn't have.

Ok.  Back to business.  The way I see it, Seller's Remorse gets worse with time, unlike buyer's remorse which is able to be settled into.   Take smoking or drinking for example.  Sure, you know it's a good idea to give either of those two things up, but it's hard as hell.  You start off strong, going days without a beer or cigarette, but eventually it wears you down to where you can't hardly stand not having that alcohol or nicotine flowing through your veins, polluting your blood, and slowly degrading your internal organs as it does its job.  This doesn't apply solely to substance abuse though, mind you.

I'm clean and I'm feeling this too.  Sure it's different.  Sure I thought I was doing the right thing at the time.  Sure it's been hard without this in my life.  Sure I could probably live without it.  But it would make it easier, I don't want to, maybe it wasn't the right thing in the long haul, and no, it's no different than a relapse.