For now. A very short time in our lives.
We really don't have much time to be young and I didn't do a very good job of it in my early youth. I'd like to make up for it now but I've got too much stuff going on now that is leading me to the rest of my life. I just started asking myself if it's actually all worth it again. I'm going to be in school for another nine years or so. Do I really want to be a doctor that bad?
Short answer- Yes.
Long answer- It's what I've always wanted to do and I honestly can't see myself doing anything else practical with my life. I can't go into business or sales and I don't want to be an underling the rest of my life. I've got to have some authority in my job or I'll go nuts taking orders and doing things the way the corporation says I'm supposed to do them. The only other thing I could do is be a "stay at home dad" figure, but that requires a wife that can carry the family financially. Not the way I really want to go. But I guess I could live with it.
Main problem with the "stay at home dad" deal is that I don't have a "Mom" to compliment my "Dad." Sure there's possibilities but I haven't seriously gotten to know anyone on a deep level in a while. I know it's not true but I feel like I've fallen out of the game. Dumb. I know. Just wish I had that one person who isn't blood related who I could just turn to in any situation and she'd accept me for me, regardless of what it was that was on my mind. I can see myself settling down soon. Only thing stopping me is a lack of another party willing to take me up on my offer. Wish she felt the same way I do...
Enough complaining.
Never mind. Just a little more. I'm injured again. Stupid knee won't leave me alone. Seems like the same problem that I had last year except this time, I've got my orthodics and they aren't in someone else's closet. Guess we'll see if they can figure it out this time on Monday when I go to the trainer.
I haven't written in here in a while. I was having some pretty vivid dreams for a while, so I started a dream journal. That's where I was writing for a while. Dreams stopped. So did the writing. Not sure this is going to be a regular thing. I like putting ideas down, but writer's block gets the best of me most of the time. This summer I'll be writing my novel for sure. Haven't done that in a LONG time.
Till next time, get lots of rest and drink plenty of fluids.
